Not only do I love you, but my life with you and our boys! I want to wake up every morning and see all your smiling faces.
But the hurtin' is on me now. Not only are you gone, but so is my life with my boys, and my current financial future.
All this for why? I am the best I've ever been, with the exception of being crazy, in love with you.
You don't love me and so my life is gone.
Now I am a slave to the state, to pay child support and see my children once every two weeks.
I'd rather be dead.
It is bad enough that I had to work 5 days a week, to come home to an empty house and wait for them to come home, and to bed.
Only to see them on weekends.
Only to see you on your days off.
5 for 2 is not worth it.
I want to live with our family every second of every minute of every hour of every day of our lives.
I don't care about hobbies or anything else. I just want us to be a family again.
I miss you, I miss our boys.
I may be able to do the best in my life, but I'm at the lowest point.
I cannot be just your friend. I love you too much. It would hurt me too much to see you and someone else happy. I could not move on. I would not be happy unless you and I are together.
I would see you with someone else, and it would piss me off.
'Why couldn't you be happy that I'm happy with someone else?'
I could, but not if I'm in love with you, I need you to be with me. I would cry every night.
'Why would my happiness piss you off?'
Because you're not happy with me.
'Why are you this way?'
Because this is the craziness that is love. Knowing that I love you and you could never love me back is murder to me. It is so important. So very, very important.
Screaming at the window. Watch me die, another day.
Hopeless situation, endless price I have to pay.
Sanity, now it's beyond me. I will always love you. There's no choice.
Diary, of a madman. Walk the line, again today.
Entries of confusion. Dear diary, I'm here to stay.
Sanity, now it's beyond me. I will always love you. No matter long I stay, I will always love you. No matter words I say, I will always love you, there's no choice.
And now we're all on our own again.
You make me feel like I'm whole again.
Voices in the darkness, scream away my mental health.
Can I ask a question? To help me save me, from myself.
Sanity now it's beyond me, I will always love you. There's no choice.
or is it... ?
Screaming, at the window. Watch me die, another day.
Hopeless, situation. Endless price, I have to pay.
Sanity now it's beyond me, there's no choice.
Diary, of a madman. Walk the line again today. Entries of confusion.
Dear Diary, I'm here to stay.
Manic depression befriends me, hear his voice.
Sanity now it's beyond me, there's no choice!
A sickened mind a spirit. the mirror tells me lies.
Could I mistake myself for someone who lived behind my eyes?
Will he escape my soul, or will he live in me?
Is he trying to get out, or trying to enter me?
Voices in the darkness, scream away my mental health. Can I ask a question? To help me save me, from myself.
Enemies fill up the pages, are they me?
Monday 'till Sunday in stages, Set me free..
Whenever I'm alone with you.
You make me feel like I am home again.
Whenever I'm alone with you.
You make me feel like I am whole again.
Whenever I'm alone with you.
You make me feel like I am young again.
Whenever I'm alone with you.
You make me feel like I am fun again.
However far away
I will always love you
However long I stay
I will always love you
Whatever words I say
I will always love you
I will always love you
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am free again.
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am clean again.
However far away
I will always love you
However long I stay
I will always love you
Whatever words I say
I will always love you
I will always love you
I'm alone, sitting with my broken glass.
My four walls follow me through my past.
I was on a paris train, i emerged in london rain
and you were waiting there swimming through apologies.
Sorry.
I remember searching for the perfect words. I was hoping you might change your mind. I remember a soldier standing next to me. Riding on the metro.
I was smiling as you took my handBut I suppose now I should return to the letter.
Saw the moon we spoke in France
You were passed as shallow words
It isn't passed there's still a hurt
You were passed as shallow words
Years have passed there's still a hurt
I can see it now, smiling as you pulled away
Sorry..
I remember the letter wrinkled in my hand
"I’ll love you always" filled my eyes
I remember the night we walked along the Seine
Riding on the metro
I remember a feeling coming over me
The soldier turned and walked away
Fuck you, for loving me!
When you were here before.
I couldn't look you in the eyes.
You're just like an angel. You skin makes me cry.
You float like a feather, in a beautiful world.
I wish I was special. You're so fucking special.
But I'm a creep. I'm a weirdo.
What the fuck am I doing here? I don't belong here.
I don't care if it hurts. I want to have control. I want a perfect body.
I want a perfect soul.
I want you to notice, when I'm dead.
You're so fucking special. I wish I were special.
But I'm a creep. I'm a weirdo. What the hell am I doing here,
when I don't belong here.
No.
She's running back again.
She's run, run, run, running.
Running.
Whatever makes you happy. Whatever you want.
You're so fucking special. I wish I was special.
I'm a creep.
I'm a weirdo.
What the hell am I doing here? I don't belong here.
No.
These eyes, cry every night for you.
These arms, long to hold you again.
The hurtin's on me yeah. I will never be free now.
You made a promise to me, yeah. You broke it.
These eyes, watched you bring my world to an end.
This heart, could not accept and pretend.
The hurtin's on me yeah. I will never be free no.
You took the vow with me yeah, you spoke it.
These eyes, are crying
These eyes have seen a lot of love,
but they're never gonna see another one like I had with you
I feel like half a life isn't a life worth living.
To see my children once every two weeks.
to pay tons of money, to see them half the time.
When I would gladly live with and love their mother.
There is no greater hell I have suffered.
Love me or kill me. My plan was to be a family man.
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