I have a problem

I have a problem with what I call pornography addiction. It is not just that I look at images of women in sexual positions (or read about them), but that I also am ashamed of it, and no longer how hard I attempt to cease viewing pornography, or how much I succeed, eventually I succumb to this temptation.

So far it has ruined the best thing in my life.
Me.
It has also hurt many more people than I can count, but here's a few anyway...
My Fiance and my Children.

I'm just hoping that my children are young enough to be able to forget what I've done.


Basically, what I would do, is I would spend my free time on the internet, or if not on the internet, infront of a computer with internet.
Then, once I was all out of things to occupy my time, I would start to feel lusty. Not horny per se, because I was not necessarily in a state of arousal, I just had an urge to see women naked and in as many different positions as possible.

I understand that it's very normal to want to view the female figure, especially for males. However when I wish to not look at something, I should not feel compelled to do it anyway.

Today, I've spent two or more hours trying to find some kind of help online. Maybe I could purchase a book, or some CD's to try to help me. Unfortunately for me, everything I've found has been of a Christian nature. I am not Christian myself, nor do I wish to be. I've found that things that are of a Christian nature do not ring loudly to me, if I know they are of a Christian nature.

Why isn't there a resource available for people who want to quit their pornography addiction without converting to Christianity? On a lesser note, how come Christianity is seemingly the only religion willing to help people with their problem and how come the Christian Church is the only one that strongly identifies pornography as a problem (excluding of course Feminist rights groups)?

I'm hoping that through this blog, I can maintain some kind of self-help. Even though I know it is wrong I am still compelled to look at pornography. Even now.